So to start off my first post, I would just like to point out the fact, that when life throws you a bunch of mess to deal with, you better have your armor ready and your heart prepared. Cause, as we all know, disappointment is not an easy to thing to just "deal with" and "get over". It hurts. Really bad sometimes. But as my current inspiration Taylor Swift says, "you have to be FEARLESS". Being able to move forward with no regrets is FEARLESS. Forgiving someone who didn't ask for it, is FEARLESS.
On another note, this is what God has been teaching me lately.
Sometimes It may not feel like God is there, but He is. He never went anywhere. If you feel distant from God, or are feeling frustrated because He won't give you an answer, it's most likely because your the one who has grown away from Him. Or maybe it's that you really haven't been listening closely to Him. Sometimes we tend to pray and ask for God's help and guideance, but with a selfish heart. What I mean by that, is that we ask for answers, but in the end, it doesn't matter what He says, we are still going to try to do things the way we think is best. This never works. And I have learned this many times, the hard way.
I was pondering last night on the things, just every day things, that make up my life everyday. From work, to college, to spending time with friends, to trying to meet appointments...it's all takes up a majority of my time. Sometimes I even feel like I am repeating the same day over and over again, therefore losing track of time and date alltogether. Then i thought about the recent struggles, heartache, etc..and wondered if maybe God is trying to tell me something. I cried out to Him, a prayer of surrender. Realizing that I have been so consumed with all these other things in my life, that I have neglected the most important part of my life. Maybe if I spent more time getting to know him on a more personal level, rather than coming to Him when times get tough, my every day "agenda" would look much different. I need to spend more time thinking about how I can use these things and events in my life to glorify God, asking for new opportunities to encourage others along the way.
So I leave you with this..
"Experience is not what happens to you; it is what you do with what happens to you."
xoxo
